Thinking About Life..

Okay, before I move on to the title topic, lets provide a little update on my life..

First up is school.. I'm officially entering the last day, of the second week in a few minutes..

Lesson is pretty much fine up till now, should be manageable..

Its the projects that are killers.. FYP and PDPE..

Also, practicals are gonna start soon and so, reports are gonna stream in..

Well, its my last final sem, I just hope to pass without any glitch..

Thats my target..

Okay, next up is 3 star assessment on the 24th of October, 2010..

Well, its been a long journey, but its definitely not the end..

Many have thought I would reach this check point earlier,

but I'm really sorry to say, everyone just have different priorities..

Anyway, what matters most is I'm here now, and I'm definitely gonna move on..

L1 coach up next.. Gonna save up and pay 1 last time for a course..

Before money's gonna start streaming in..

After all, I've been trying to survive without income for more than half a year now..

And its really hard.. Consider I've so much expedition and courses to take..

Plus now I'm aiming to go Thailand and Austrilia. Hola!!

Okay, other than passing my 3 star assessment,

I also took my NAPFA and receive my first ever Gold Award..

I don't care what others people thing and say,

I just wanna say I'm god dammed happy because I finally got a gold award..

You don't know how much it means to someone who have never receive it..

Just because he was always short of a few cm in standing board jump..

Although this year the you could say the person cheated a little for me,

I knew jolly well I coulda jump well over 232cm.. Thats not a lie..

Anyway, I got my Gold, and my Crumpler pouch.. Thats all that matters!

Anyway, recently a close friend of mine brought me some really interesting news,

and although I would really like to say/do something to help,

I still think that letting nature takes its course would be for the best..

For those who think they know wad I'm refering to, and you think its you, and you think you might wanna talk to me to clarify anything or ask for advice or just to talk or anything, you know I'm always on.. Hoho.. Hope I got this hidden message across.. And hope its not too direct..

Anyway, all the best.. You have my support..

Okay, with updates done, lets move on to my own life.. This has really become a long post..

Basically, I've been thinking much about what I wanna do..

Maybe I shoulda done it earlier, but as I've said, we all have our own priorities..

I chose not to plan early ahead because I rather use that time to play then..

Those past 19 years werent live in vain because I know,

I've definitely played to my fullest.. That was my priorities..

For now, I need a plan for ny future.. Not just one, but a few, just in case..

For starters, I'm trying to start to be active in WV now,

because I know this is a lifestyle I'm not gonna discard..

Kayaking has been one of the only few sports, that I've managed to stay interested in..

But I need think bigger, about what I wanna do..

I've thought about going to uni.. But for starters, I'm neither interested in Business (at all) and Sciences (complex) now.. I might seems like I could be a Science guy when I was in pri and sec school, but its getting really difficult for me to stay interested in Science.. I rather do something more practical.. Something like Social Work.. Ha! Look at all your damm faces.. That shock and astonish faces.. Well, its not like I'm being random or anything but, I AM, really interested in Social Work.. Particularly in helping small kids who faces family problems.. I just wanna give them a chance, to experience childhood, the ordinary way.. But thats just something I thought I wanna do, so I cant really be sure yet..

Next up, through a friend who was trying to convince me to go uni, he told me that I could trying getting into NIE so I could be a PE teacher.. It didnt really cross my mind back then but recently, I've been giving it more thoughts.. As a PE teacher, I can learn skills to teach more effectively.. This would definitely helps in my coaching career in kayaking.. And further more, I can help spread this sports to more youngster, expending this community.. And even best, I just have to study hard so as to not drop out, and I will be receiving money while studying.. Aint that great? Previously, I was really against the idea of going into uni because I thought I wasn't interested in studies anymore, and that I dont really have that kinda money.. But this definitely solves the money problem, and it gives me a chance, to discover if I still wanna study, or not.. With my first step into uni through NIE, I might reconsider my decision, and further my studies, heading for a masters or something..

Well, both ideas seems really okay but I havent really decided yet.. In the end, I've decided I will save up capital and in the end, switch to a full time coach or open up a small eatery, or both.. Being a chef was one of my dreams and if I could successfully open my own eatery, I would be both a chef and a boss.. Its still kinda still a dream now but this serves as a pretty good target for now.. At least now I know for the next 30 years of my life, I know what to aim for.. Anyway, relationship is the least of my concern now.. Since I cant seems to get those I like, and there's no one who like me, just let me stay single for a while longer bah.. Maybe my Miss right will appear soon.. hoho..

Well, this pretty sums up wad I've been thinking about my life.. But regardless, I still hav 2 years to think though carefully while in there.. Maybe I might just change what I wanna do.. But thats all future tense.. For now, lets let MxFate, the-once-in-a-while-blogger sign off, and grab some sleep.. Hola! Nitez!!

The Last Few Days

Well, this would be the last Friday that we are gonna have before school reopens..

We've been through it countless times but I just cant shake this feeling off..

The feeling of dread..

Hmmm, sickening as it may be, its unavoidable, undeniable..

We just have to force ourselves to get used to it.. Hola..

Anyway, here's a quick update on Sea-X..

Great Job, for my junior com, I think the whole thing went rather well..

Great Job, for my upgraders, its not easy, but you guys survived, in one piece..

For the senior com, it was more of a farewell expedition or something..

This might just be the last time, for some of us to come to hantu..

And its probably the last time we're planning the expedition to hantu with SPA..

For 3 whole year, we've been visiting this place once every year, like an anniversary or

something.

It sure brings back memories.. Be it painful, or happy..

Remember the first year we came to hantu, as upgraders..

Hellish.. All sort of non-sense..

But we went back Stronger.. As a person, as a team..

Remember the second year we came to hantu, as Junior com..

Different, and Enriching..

I never thought there was that much we have to know and take into consideration when on an expedition, until Jacob taught me what he knows..

And this third year we came to hantu, as Senior com..

Personally my best..

I felt that, there was a kinda balance between the old method, and the new method of training..

We know that the old kinda method is effective in forming team with strong bonds, because it worked for us, and for all the past batch..

But we also know that the world is changing, and each generation is much more different from the next..

We didnt know what else we could have taught or let them experience..

But now we got all the necessary skills to plan a better expedition..

And this year, its all about striking the perfect balance..

There must be hellish training, but they must know what it is for..

There must also be learning experience, so that they dont go back empty handed..

And in my point of view, I think our objectives were pretty much met..

And thats a success..

I know, this was quite the long winded post, and that most people probable wont care to read, but as I mentioned, this is a dairy.. For myself.. Lest my memories fails me..

thus, once again, this is mxfate, the-once-in-a-while-blogger, signing off..

p.s. some photos of me.. actually, there was only just a few..

LOL..

Updates on holidays

OH YA, this part is actually edited in last but i wanna share a dish I cooked by myself without and recipe.. Just trying it out based on gut feeling: SWEET AND SOUR PORK (Vegan)

Ingredients: Mock Meat, Carrot, Mushroom, Long beans. Sauce: Tomato sauce, Squeezed Lime, and Brown Sugar (y)

I think it was really nice, but my family didnt give me much feedback.. Guess my mom is really too good a chef.. LOL..

Okay, basically this is a quick and short updates for the holidays..

Well, we were supposed to have a 6 weeks break but because of YOG, it has now become four weeks break.. Saddening..

And this four weeks seems really short because there was just too much stuff to do..

In this 2 1/2 weeks that have passed, most of my days are directed to FYP and PDPE..

I spend my Sundays teaching tuition, for a full day at BXB, and that equates to no afternoon nap which i usually takes on Sundays afternoon..

I went down to dairy farm to have my job "sharing" interview with my SPA mates..

I got back my results for this sem:

IS1005 - 8 - B
CP5038 - 3 - A
LC0214 - 2 - DIST
CP5006 - 4 - B
CP5023 - 3 - B
CP5041 - 4 - B+
CP5017 - 4 - C+

SEMESTER GPA: 3.179
CUMULATIVE GPA: 3.244

Great, I think I did good enough.. (y)

Anyway, my friend PeiJie aka Xiao Bian who went aussie is back with us for a short while, during her break.. Me and Shao Quan actually went to pick her up at the airport, but instead we were all picked up by her uncle who sent everyone back to cck.. After that, we had a dinner, just the three of us, at pasta.. Deciding it was not enough just to meet her once, we ask her out again today, and had dinner at pizza.. LOL.. Next time, please please please go to a coffee shop.. I'm a broke man.. Anyway, after dinner, we went chillax at NorthVale, before heading home around 11.. Well, its supposed to be hard studying alone overseas, so I'm hoping all these memories could help her in anyway possible=D JiaYou Xiao Bian!

Next up is SPA stuff, well, finally had our 5th Mc meeting, which was delayed time and again due to different reasons.. SEA-X is this friday till sunday.. Hoping to make the most out of it for the Upgraders.. With one term over as President, I'm slowly entering retirement mode as its about time to prepare the next president.. But who.. Who can I pass over the baton and responsibility to.. Honestly, I know not yet.. I guess I just have to observe for a bit longer.. And that land training, it really was my mistake.. I had the foresight to plan ahead and set a longer training period for poly 50, but I made the mistake of not following through.. Ended up, this year we had the least bonded team ever.. I don't blame the upgrading ICs.. Because I should have exercise more pressure on them.. Had I put in more effort and concern to trainings, it wont have reach this stage as it is today.. Haiz.

Next up is life, curse it.. The previous post was meant to be a shadow post for myself but end up, it actually had like the most number of views out of all my posts.. Cuz everyone was coming to talk to me asking me what the hell was it about.. omg.. Anyway, I'm still trying my best to curb my bad habit, I wont say I've become a saint overnight but I definitely tried.. (2) would be the number of times, since that day but well, its a improvement.. at least I'm not thinking about it so often now..

Okay, time for me to end here and stop.. Needa grab some rest.. Nitez peeps.. This is mxfate, the-once-in-a-while-blogger, signing off (y)