God.. How time flies..
Its the last day of the year 2008 already...
Looking back, it seems that my life has somewhat become more of a mess..
Well, for a comprison, with last year this day..
I had everything then..
I had love, I have studies, I have friends, and most importantly, I have purpose..
Now, the same day, 366 days later,
I have little of those left..
No love, no studies, no purpose...
Only thing I have is my family and friends..
Well, lets jus pray for the best in the year 2009 bah..
God knows what to do with me..

YO! YO! YO! YO! YO!...
Aint I lame? But cool right.. LOL..
Feeling so bored now-a-days..
Nothing much to do.. Or rather,I don feel like doing much..
I got so much things on my hand, yet I've touched nothing..
Dont know, Dont care.. Doesnt really matters does it?
If I am gonna spent my whole life borthering myself with studies,
I rather it all end now..
Its pointless, meaningless, useless.. We could do so much more..
And for me, I don care bout studies anymore..
But other than that, I don know what route to take..
So, for now, I am just like a mindless shell..
Wondering around the world of idleness..
Slacking everyday..
This is even more wrong that focusing on studies..
But, I just cant walk out of it..
For one such as me, the word lazy has no limit..
Guess I've just officially declared me as one of the guys,
who are a burden to society..
Haha.. Oh well..Burden or not..
Its not for me to decide..
We'll see how we fare in the future..
Because eventaully, I will have to walk out this darkness..
And do something...
Eventually, If i have the will.. If i can find the will..
As mention, nothing really matters now...
I have no target in live, no wish in life, no hope in life..
I'm bound only by duties towards my parents as a child..
Bound only by limits as a human..
Thus the day I fulfill my duties a child, poof and I'll be gone..
Thats what I hope...
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Dont start going, omg, what kinda emo post..
And we've been waiting for quite sometime..
Oh well.. Crap..
Doesnt really matters does it..
Jus let me rot.. Society does have a place for people like me..
The rotting corner. LOL..
Don worry, I wont seek death.. It aint a option now..
God knows what options I have, or rather I'll choose..
Who knows.. Stay tuned..

Hey, here's a song I'll like to sahre.. Go search for it under my play list.. =D

The Good Kind (Live Version) by The Wreckers

Do you wanna run away together?
I would say it was your best line ever.
Too bad I fell for it...
And I walked along,
Waiting for you to come along.
Take my tortured heart by the hand.
And write me off.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...
You forced me to become strong.
And I just cried, being weak.
And you think you know.
And I would like to think so,
But do you know that when you go,
I fall apart.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind.
No, it's not the good kind...
I'm tired of hiding behind these lying eyes,
I'm tired of this smile that even I don't recognize.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I cry?
And it's not the good kind...

No, you're not the good kind.
Good kind
No, you're not the good kind.
Good kind
No, you're not the good kind

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P.S. If you notice it, you will realise that I've replaced the song Home. Not really replace the song, but the singer.. Do check it out =D

I AM BACK ALIVE YET AGAIN!!
THANKS GOD..
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I know I know.. Stop thinking 'Wads with the starting sentence,'''=_='..
LoL.. I knew it..

Haha.. Actually, its nothing to be surprised about..
I just camp back from a day camp.. In the sea..
Well, not excatly in the sea, but actually on the sea..
You see, we are actually preparing for the RIKE,
which I, regreatably and unfortunately cant make it,
because I have a chalet with my secondary class,
that we planned for some time back..
So guys going for the RIKE, sorry and good luck =D
Oh ya, I forget to mention, RIKE stands for Round Island Kayaking Expedition.
Its organised by my cca seniors, and its only open to insider..
Sorry peeps that are interested, I cant offer it to you..
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Well, although I cant make it myself,
I make it a point for me to go down for the prep training myself..
Initially, me and a few from my batch felt reluctant to go..
Because initially, we feel that we really arent up to the standard...
Well, I'm not sure how the rest felt, but thats wad I generally felt..
But in the end, since I paid, I decided to make the best of it..
So, reluctantly, I left my home and set off for the camp..
Oh, by the way.. I was actually late for the briefing time..
Luckliy, they haven started the briefing.. And you know why?
I later found out that the stated briefing time was bogus..
They actually planned for us to come early so we can help out in the preparations..
MY GOD.. AINT THAT CLEVER!!
Haha..Good idea.. I think its something I can keep as refference. =P
Well, I don really mind being there early, at least we get to learn some stuff..
Not bad.. I was starting to feel that I wont regret coming..
And since I was dere.. I decide to make the best out of it..
But what I didnt really like bout the first night was the lack of sleep..
I know we had stuff to do, but if u consider the amount of sleep,
for a full day of kayaking the following day.. I think its insufficient..
With insufficient sleep, people become reckless..
I think that everyone should at least have a clear mind jus in case something crop up..
Thats the least I expect, because other than safety, no else comes first =D
Well, though short, I should be glad we had some sleep...
AND.. IT WAS STILL THE SAME FREAKING COLD ROOM..
Why izzit every time we sleep over at pm it must be that cold..man.. this sux..
lol...
Well, other than that, i think breakfast was not that good as well..
I dont really like havin mac breakfast because it really cost a lot..
Well,maybe not for those working alumni...
But seriously, I think they should reconsider this..
Hmmm.. Oh well.. Don complain so much.. I'm glad I've food..=D
After breakfast, we have another short briefing, oh ya.. I forget to mention, we had a short briefing before sleep.. LOL..
When we are done talking, we set off.. I was paired with JJ, one of the alumni..
And our first destination was p. hantu, some 10-15 km away..
But that wasnt the complete course, we actually have to kayak pass hantu,
then kayak to another the end of another island before heading back for hantu..
That actually adds up to 5km..
For this part one, the paddling wasnt much difficult because we were still fresh..
But, the main problems lies with dirrection and control..
It sux big time.. The side current make me f--king d-l-n..
Man.. Seriously,if u paddle in a condition where ya kayak keep losing direction..
I think you will feel damm angry and siann...
Well, enough of that.. After part one was lunch.. LoL.. You must be wondering how early was that.. We actually had lunch bout 12..
Bout half and hour later, we set off for part 2..
Actually, we didnt really complete part 2 because we were caught up in a storm and visibilty become dangerously low.. So, we acually raft up and waited for it to past..
For part 2, we kayak to the end of that other island and back again..
So it was only 5 km.. But actually, we were supposed to do another 10 km lap..
We were suposed to kayak past some becon and return to hantu..
In the end, we abandon this part.. Oh well..
After part 2, we had a short rest before we head back to pm..
The journey should also be about 10-15 km..
We actually took 3 1/2 hour to reach back..
For both part 2 and part 3, I was partnering with Yu Tai..
And we were assigned, or I should say volunteered to be tail end..
Speaking of which, I have to apologize.. Because I actaully didnt do my work..
At that point of time, I was actually thinking bout the pride of the alumin..
I know, part of my job is to push people at the back forward..
And show them the support so that the can push on..
But I didnt overlook the fact that they are alumin, and they have more experince..
Wont encouragment coming out from a junior be a insult to them?
Honstly, I dont know.. But I think maybe I think too much le..
I was just hoping not to say or do something without thinking of the consquences..
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Okay, other than that.. Nothing much.. The trip back was much easier..
I think maybe yutai and i could cordinate much better..
Or I think beacuse the side current was less irriating..
What ever the case, we make it back and I'm glad.. =D
After that, we had a short debrief..
Once again, I gotta apologize because during the briefing,
I think I said too much.. Haha..
I know everyone was tired and wanna go home..
But when we sit down and started talking bout the trip,
I realise that there are actually alot of stuff we overlook..
I think I just wanna be useful by offering some new viewpoints..
Hopes it didnt make me too irraitng.. lol...
Well, after debrief, we bath and left for dinner..
I think they alumni are very good to us junior..
Because by right, out of respect, we junior should let offer up the right to bath first for them..
But they actually let us bath and leave first, for that, I'm thankful..
And because we get to bath first and leave first, I make it to the veggie stall at clement in time..
Thanks god I had food.. If not I would have starve to death..
Oh, I forget to mention..Haha..Lunch was disater..
You know wad I have lunch?
A harsh brown, corssiant, a choc bread and a few jelly.. ok, maybe a lot of jelly..
Well, if u consider what I eat for a regular day, breakfast.. I think it should be just nice...
Oh maybe a bit too much..
But we're talking bout lunch, for a day of training.. I think I seriously lack carbo..
Heng during the mst period, I was eating biscuit like a hungry ghost..
If not, I wouldnt have store up that much fats to last me through.. LOL..
Anyway, even if the lunch, I am really thankful..
At least I have something.. Thats better than starving..
But to make up for it, I actually have an erormous dinner..
Don ask me how much I eat, go ask Yu Tai if u want to know.. LOL..
After dinner, we head for home..
That should be all bah =D

Through out the training, I think what I've learn more is pratical experience..
And the training experince..
Its not everyday you get kayak in a storm..
For me, I think this is just and introduction.. A window..
To greater adventure ahead..
I definitely need these experince to aid me..
Cheers..

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Btw, I am so lazy to continue the post with A-X so i will try to sumarize it..

After that game, we had dinner..
After dinner, we went for night hike.
Night hike was secondary, the pratical emergency training was the main thing.
We took turns be leader and each time we were given specific senario to handle..
After that, we got back, debrief and sleep..
Night sentry again..
Wake up, breakfast..
No pt, funny.. But good =D
Then.. ERM... EH.... Forget liao..
Oh ya, we make a water filter with stone rocks sands and paper.. In a plastic bottle..
Then we try to make first with only magnifying glass..
Then with flint.. Failed..
Then they killed frogs..
Then we had lucnh..
Then we pack up..
Then we go home..
=D
Period.. Thats bout all for the last part..
Seriously tired liao..
Haha..
But overall its a good experience..
Cheers..

Oh man.. Its been a while since I last posted..
Well, same old opening, nothing much happened..haha..
Well, the least I can do is to update on what happened during A-X..
Before I forget everything..

--Friday--
We met up at five or six, I've forgotten..
Then we started packing our bags and distributed the logistic..
After which we set off for changi village via train and bus..
Upon arrival, we put our bag down and rest a while..
Yao they all had to buy some stuff, we after they got what they needed, we set off for ubin..
We took a boat dere, obviously.. Some people taught we kayak dere..
LOL..That would be tiring and unthinkable..
When we reached ubin, we carried all our stuff to the beach campsite.
We then set up our basha and equipment tent.
After that, I think we had dinner then do 200 push up or opposite..Forget..
And y did we did 200 push up?
Well, it was all my fault.. I lost the jerry can that was inflatable..
Man, this time I screw up big time.. Sorry guys..
But after that, I think everyone was too tired le, so we just grab what ever sleep we could..
Oh, before I forget, we had night sentry..Haha..Boring and tiring..

--Sat--
Woke up, had PT as usual..
Heng Heng it was lead by eugene..
If not, I think we sure die...LOL..
If yao was dere, he coulda kill us..Heng sia..
After PT is breakfast..
Breakfast finish, we did orientation.. (map reading)
Well, we didnt really complete the challenge cuz there was a chain of event that happen there after...

Firstly, Yu tai and Cs got paired off and they left first..
Then, it was me and Wei Loon that get paired off..
After which was Yao Sheng and Johnson..
For me and weiloon, we didnt really knew how to read the map, so we end up walking in circles and met up with Yao Sheng and Johnson..So we joined and walk in fours..
At some point of time, we saw a female cyclist cycling down a slope, some 200 m away from us..
Suddenly, we realise her feet was off her bike and she was like wobbling..
And then, she drift off course, crashed and fell off her bike..
Seeing a damsel in distress, we rush forward.. LOL.. Like knights liddat..
But, we sibei lao kui.. You know why?
Cuz it was like four big guys, one injured girl, and nothing we can do..
We got no phones, no first aid kit.. No nothing..
So, we help her up.. Took her bike, saw her friend and decide to send her to the ranger station..
On the way back, we saw jiayao.. He then rush back on one of the bike and got a first aid kit..
We then called the ranger station and asked for a transport vechicle..
They arrived shortly,asked a few qns, did more first aid and left..

After everything, we were no doubt behind schedule..
So we set off for our next destination..
It was a beach, I forget a name, but I know its the one beside the Npcc-ATC campsite..
While dere, me and cs was seperated from the others..
They went in to the forest for a little hike..
We then realise that they went worms eating..
URGH..WTF...Its so disgusting..Cant bring myself to think bout it..OMG...
After their light meals, we went down to the beach and build a raft..
That couldnt float..Oh well...It was kinda lame.. But we build sth..
After that we set off back to camp for lunch..
Lunch, was horrible..
We had to start our own fire using sticks and branches..
After which, we only had flour and raisin, which we used to make dough..
We then roast the dough over the fire to make bread..Jungle bread..LOL..
Believe me, althought it look ugly and is supposed to taste funny,
you wont mind it when you are seriously damm hungry..
So lucnh was jus that crap..
When we are almost through with lucnh, it started raining..
As it was quite heavy, we rushed into our tent and stayed dere..
While waiting for the rain to stop,
Me Yutai and CS keep singing songs..Haha..
Self entertainment.. LOL
I don really recall what we sung, but I know we sang alot..cool..

After that, we did some light pt..Conducted by Jiayao..
After that we went sent to play some lame game..
Organised by willard..

-TBC- I want sleep liao..Stay tunned..HAHA..
=D