July 28 - September 15 2009

A whole 1 and a half month absences..

Yet again, one of those long periods whereby I was too lazy to post..

Well, I thought, I should at least give a small review,

before I start to forget everything..

Exams was completed in this month, but I still don know how I fared.

SIKE ended quite successfully, without much problems..

Completed my Standard First Aid Course..

Juniors trainings have started yesterday..

And..

I lost some money in majong.

Played alot of dota..

Slack at home all day for many day..

Been thinking alot yet again..

Within this few months, I felt that I've gotten closer to my mom..

Althought I didnt really share any personal problems with her..

At least we are talking with each other more often..

And instead, she is sharing with me problems she faces in "school"..

While, she had ITP, i repeat ITP at a kindergarden..

Its for a DIPLOMA she is taking to be a kindergarden teacher..

Cool right.. And she is getting hers faster than I would be..

Oh well, anyway, it aint as easy as it seems..

Small kids now a days are hard to manage..

But I do hope my mom will make it through.. Go for it mom!!

Other than my relationship with my mom,

I've finally decided to cut away my love ties..

Since my last ex till now.. I've been hoping to get a new girl..

Someone I could support, some who could support me..

But thinking back, I realise how foolish I was..

Becasue I know, no matter how much I fool myself,

I will never step out of my past.. Of my mistake..

The one thing I can do now, is to completely seal up myself..

Love is something I no longer have the right to desire..

So I will make it something I will not desire..

Even if its hard, I see no other way..

It my choice.. my life.. my mistake..